Why do I try?

Food of the Gods, reading on plane/
venom of Lucifer, creates mental strain/
mind's mental lane shrinks/
yet this poison causes me to think/
dilemmas arise, for my brain feels as if it has no link/
the ether I always inhabit has dissipated/
I now understand the true meaning of the note: DOCTOR'S WARNING/
I am having trouble putting this into words/
thankfully my conscious is still attached/
it tells me to cut my veins to the blackness/
"but self" I think, "I want to understand all of it's effects"/
it replies simply, "you foolish humans seek too much. This isn't what you were made to seek, even if it will create everlasting memories. Yes, Mother created Tobacco, but not this form. Man ruined my beautiful plant, just like they ruined my body. My breasts are now milk-less. My hips are no longer childbearing. My lips are now blue. Man's freezing saliva infiltrated my river, and now my teeth chatter. What have they done?"/
"They...they....I am so sorry."/
"Sorry you are boy. Get out of my womb. Leave me to heal my wounds you have inflicted upon your creator. You have no purpose anymore. Go to my sister. Her drought stricken planet will curse you no more, for she is dead. Your ancestors killed her long ago. May you perish in Hell in exchange for your specie's actions."

I finally figured out the purpose of humanity...

After listening and watching this beautiful music video(look below), I have come to the conclusion that our purpose is to constantly evolve, ultimately for the better.  The only part you haven't thought of pertaining to my statement is the involvement of robots aka artificial intelligence.  Scientists out there in there underground, unregulated missile silos are creating something you have never imagined.  Forget Stalin's monkey army. (see www.youtube.com/watch?v=NM0QW3RH1Os)  I'm talking about indestructible, mass-producing, constantly evolving I, Robot type dudes.  Available to the public today, you can watch the creatures they are creating with your own eye(s). (search - 

AKIBA ROBOT FESTIVAL 2006: Actroid Female Robot)  I'm going to go on a limb and say 

that our destiny could very well be to create something that eventually will have little or no need for us.  We can see glimpses of this in the "Occupy" movement.  Most of the protesters, from what I gather, are concerned with joblessness.  The cause of this is partly due to corporate greed, but it also stems from the fact that humans are being outsourced by technology.  This will only rise in the near future. (our technology doubles at a faster rate every year)  We will most likely have vast amounts of people that are jobless in the future.  And we know what happens when people don't have an occupation to "occupy" their time and minds.  They go haywire. (i.e.- Hurricane Katrina)  If this happens, our superior Robot race could simply give us menial tasks to complete, like many of us do now, or they could very well end our race.  We consume far too much.  We have inhumane inequality.  We do not plan well with thoughts of our environment/Earth.  I have to admit.  I would not blame these futuristic beings, if that word can be used here.  If my theory is correct, that is our destiny.  Don't get me wrong.  I love humanity and all our pleasures we face here on this rock.  An easier solution would be an Archaic Revival a la Terence McKenna.  Going back to our roots, if you will, could solve a lot of current problems we face, but I high have little hope for that paradisaical escape.  Our world will continue to run off of lust, greed, and evil.  Maybe the robots can become our leaders, selecting a few good men to replenish the earth, giving seeds and animal DNA to the dimwits.  Destroy and rebuild, as Nastradamus once said....  Destroy and rebuild.

While watching "Into the night: Alejandro Jodorowsky and Daniel Pinchbeck", I had a thought.  He spoke of one of his experiences with Ayahuasca, in which he spoke to extra-terrestrials from the Sirius star system.  They told him that they gave up on technology, and that is what we may go through in our future.  They had no interest in living longer lives as well.  This made me think of our society. Instead of living longer, my goal is to live better while I am alive, so the memories of myself can be passed down to future generations.  

Your sleeping you is still you.

A recent conversation made me think of a dream I had while contemplating what branch to join after high school.  It may sound like a nightmare, but in the end it was overall a positive experience.  I was originally going to join the Marines, but luckily I had a dream of being in a warzone.  We were inside of a base, in the desert at night, and we were getting bombed.  I rushed out of our tent and started running.  Too much adrenaline got in my system, and I accidentally shot a few of my fellow service members.  I was devastated.  After waking up, I realized the potential impact I could acquire by murdering someone, whether it be by accidental friendly fire, or by killing a father fighting for his country.  This was a huge wake up call to me.  My programmed dreams of being some sort of a GI Joe hero were shattered.  I was, like most kids, consumed by false ideals presented to me.  Channeled from the television and gaming consoles, I felt the urge to go on an adventure.  Traveling to rain forests, deserts, and tundras should appeal to any child that has had little excitement in his/her life.  Sadly, these same kids become killers.  Some go on to not only kill others, but also themselves.  Ever since this event, I have given dreams more thought.  Could they be some kind of learning tool, or perhaps a not so polished psychic state?

Diary - 11AUG2014

Today is yet another cold day on the seas of the Antarctic.  It's not enough misery to make me regret my decision to leave college one year early.  UH-Hilo was amazing.  So many awesome people.  The weather was simply perfect.  No better environment exists that I have experienced.  All the ganja I could imagine.  I still can't believe "the men in the smoke filled room" let President Paul legalize it.  Back to my point.  My decision to join the Sea Shepherd was the best one I've made yet.  Being on the RHIB team gives me such an adrenaline spike.  And the mission to keep exposing these illegal Japanese companies is the most purposeful job I can imagine.  (It sure beats P-3 life with the Navy)  I've yet to be called upon by Pete to board a vessel.  I have no fear of jail.  Most of the Japanese people understand and support our cause anyway.  Sadly, capitalism is still here in 2014!  This post is going nowhere.  I should get some sleep. 

M for the Movement

They tarnished the word

But for what?

Hippies were just changing the world

In their off time givin' hula hoops a twirl

One love, unity, mind expansion, social balance

Ganja equals retaliation, the 1% won't benefit from this

Common sense doesn't make cents..... nor dollars

U.S. big wigs startled, so they retaliate, but first.....they holler 

"The hippies are growing strong; they're working with the Panthers; some radicals are even going underground"

COINTELPRO is born.  What a beautiful crippling concoction.

A few kept fighting.  Most had kids, bought a TV, and went back to sleep, searching for the American dream.

Will more tribes branch off from the present occupiers?  Can peacefulness triumph hellfire missiles, departing from predators in the night, funded with our tax money?

Possibly.  Time will tell.  For now, the Watcher will continue taking notes.

Why do I think that way?

Many personal conversations involving myself turn sour when current events are presented.  At work, this happens a lot, maybe because of the location.  It's a U.S. Navy aircraft hangar, with many people working jobs they do not enjoy but still do it, possibly for the salary, the camaraderie, or the sense that what they are doing is right.  Events like the 9/11 World Trade Center and the Osama Bin Laden assassination come up in discussion frequently.  It usually ends when I say, "Why believe in the story exactly as they say, when you can look into History and find many examples of lies?" In any circumstance, leader's always tend to lie just enough to get the person's trust.  Imagine what would happen if everyone didn't do what the President wanted.  We would have squadrons missing deployments, tanks wouldn't get built for war, etc. Even at a young age, an older brother will lie to his younger sister, so he won't have to rake the yard.  It's a natural human emotion, and completely understandable.  It should also be noted that it is time for mass evolution. (Below I have noted a few lies)

There are a few people that do have the same opinions as myself, but the mass majority think everything is right in the world.  If only they watched a few documentaries, or some Al Jazeera News.  I can't blame them however.  Sometimes I wish for a better world, even if it was just an illusion.  I should start playing World of Warcraft.  There I can escape this life and become a true legend.  That is escapism at it's finest.  But on the other hand, I would rather stay here, in this dimension, learning all of these things, hopefully so one day I can use my experiences to better humanity.  It does seem like a long shot, but I feel like with all the horrible things going on, there is still time for a better Earth.  We have all the current necessary resources.  Just look up The Venus Project.  They have a solution, and they have had it for many years.  There is even an example of their work in Venus, Florida!  

40 acres and a mule

Fear and Disinformation Campaign  http://www.globalresearch.ca/articles/CHO301A.html

Tuskegee syphilis experiment

guatemala std experiments

WMD's in Iraq

Gulf of Tonkin Incident

These are just a few.  Comment if you would like to share some more.

Tree of Knowledge

You got people in China, working all day long/

They go home with a few bucks, exhausted, no more to long/

They never had our childhood dreams.  All they know was slavery in the system/

While you were deliberately dropping out of school/

They were learning to sow, with western, modern tools/

Why is this world run by fools, who enforce countless, stupendous rules/

Would I have ever looked at this world with my hidden eye/

Contemplating suicide, or yelled to the car in front of me, "Die!"/

Maybe it is better to have few thoughts, rather mindless work/

Because in the garden of Eden, enemies lurk/

Knowledge is a deadly, mysterious, and enticing thing/

I have yet to find good alone.  The cellar door's bell constantly rings/

I barred all my windows, and shut my doors with locks/

But the knowledge persistently knocks, then mocks/

I sign it's clause, asking my lawyer for loopholes/

But he's on knowledge's side.  My foot get's caught in a pothole/

The genderless being frees me with a few facts/

Then imprisons me as I notice the cracks/

I have failed to relax

This is not right...

My Platoon was on it's way to Saigon/

What were we doing here?  The hippies back home were right.  I could tell the Gulf of Tonkin Incident was all wrong/

When I saw my former Captain leave with tons of heroin/

I realized there were no real heroes, nor heroines/

I tried to tell my buddies, but they were always in denial/

So I was on my own, us as a species going into a downward spiral/

We stopped in a village, to rob the locals of some supplies/

Will these friendlies later become enemies?  They had every right to, in my eyes/

We were about to leave, when Private Taylor got shot/

Big Harold was next to go.  Man, I was tied in a knot/

All I could do was run, who knew where the Sappers were/

I weaved through bush and huts, and then I saw her/

In that split second, our soles connected.  She grabbed my hand to come in/

I found a way out of death.  Nearly blind, the powers of the universe gave me passion/

The End?

Dedicated to my Uncle Ron, a Vietnam Veteran.

EDIT: 20 years of war.  Over 2 million vietnamese killed.

Daniel Ellsberg Exposes the US Government

 (Pentagon Papers Documentry) Part 1.avi

vinnie paz's verse included  in version below

His father's story

Planning My Escape

Am I the only being to have conveyed these thoughts/

I hope so/

Are there any pieces of land that have never felt a footprint/

I've hear the answer is yes, but how do they really know/

It seems everything in this world is unverifiable.  Things always change/

One year "smoking is good for you," the scientist lies through his tongue/

The next year is the contrary, and more smoke is produced inside blackened lungs/

On the other side of walls, forced medical experimentations, unheeded torture, nuclear fallout are put into action/

Women of Darfur are raped, South African racists are slain, and deep with the Congo another Gorilla is bushwhacked with a Machete/

Just as the African man and female gorilla skin, this is too dark for most/

I now understand your uninteresting wall posts/

"Yeah, the pool party was so much fun.  We got wasted!"/

That is a lot easier than/

"The US Government admits to intentionally infecting Guatemalans with gonorrhea and syphilis."/

I just can't stand it/

I try to escape both sides/

There are a few places left in this world where I can go hide/

If not, I would be right there with you, pool side/

Chatting about millions who died, while their children just sat there and cried/

Inspired by Chris Rock and X-Men

Republicans are fucking idiots/

Democrats are fucking idiots/

idiots are fucking idiots, giving birth to a new breed/

pro-war, kill doctors, corruption, anti-weed/

in this sense I support eugenics/

no, not the Nazis, or killing babies, never mimic/

a previous way of thinking, we need some evolution/

of the mind, body, spirit, create your own inner revolution/

it's the fusion slash confusion of two obese people procreating/

is it fair to that child, who down the road wishes he was never created/

yea, I get your point of view.  If we didn't have these people, blah, blah, mass chaos/

but what do we have now?  We got Madoffs, layoffs, country vs. country face offs/

we need to taper off.  If the supposed leaders won't fix it, try yourself/

starting with your inner-self, do what's right in your eyes, and have some morals/

moral of the story, don't impose ideals on anybody/

nobody likes to be told what to do. No general orders/

as soon as others sense you might be right, they will take the first steps, go past the corridors, and become the opposite of Mister Sinister's Marauders.

Die-it

Blood Type O Positive, I've been eating wrong all along
Since childhood, from McDonald's to BK; I'm not blaming you Mom
We both didn't know Diet was all; at least you weren't feeding me Psalm after Psalm
I'm glad I can complain about something so minor
Because some mom in Africa, can't even afford a liner
Her child is enslaved to be a Diamond Miner, and to her, no job is finer
We here in America, we have the choice to eat right
Depending on your class level, as well as genotype
Hype I am now, knowing how blood can affect Diet
Might it, even cause cancer, acne, all these things that hopefully only get discussed in our dreams
Certain foods can morph us into fiends
Eating disorders, both sexes throwing up what they eat, not only teens
Khalil The Heretic said we should all eat well, not only Kings
The political and religious elite, always believe they deserve more
All this worldly bullshit, can I dream that I can soar
Past the moon's core, away from this life's tour
Maybe another world will take me in
They'll say, "Ah, we've been waiting for you, Aaron"
And then, as I go to greet the peaceful Alien,
****BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP****

I've got a bone to pick with one species

Dogs barking, and barking, and barking
They believe they are similar to the anointed one
My two sense is that most owners have reversed the name God
And made it Dog
You see, people like Dogs more than their Gods
They praise them, display them, make up ways to embrace them
I know it's not too serious, maybe I'm being a little delirious
But when I'm trying to watch Donnie Darko, or even better, meditate
And all I hear is your little Shit-Zoo, I only hesitate
At the thought of correcting the whole situation,
Just like I would handle Joey The Situation
Please excuse me for my minor frustration
Remember, in other countries, viewed by secret satellite video stations
We learn that some people eat the dogs,
When with better ideas and thoughts, we could be worrying about future constellations
(Aquarian?)
Instead of hearing Lady Gaga on your dumbed down radio station
Let's all take an inner vacation, escape for a few hour
Stop focusing on the 7th tower
Realign, and shift your power
To positivity, infinity, the laws of trinity
You know, it just hit me
This poem started out about Dogs, but it morphed into a mystery
---------------------------------------------------
Will Mankind ever create a kind man?

Lost Humanity

When was the last time you felt like a human being?  Were you 10, having the time of your life at the local pond?  Or were you fighting with your sister, how could you be so mean?  We live in a world which rewards us when we conquer a country, when we get the new Audi, when we achieve stardom.  People think we are strange when we volunteer for good causes, stand up against corruption, label freedom as Free-Dumb.  We were once a great species, equipped with vast knowledge, using our big brains to understand our universe, outrunning Kudu over a 30 mile landscape.  We still have these magnificent tools, but we use them to read about the Tiger Woods' scandal instead of learning how to travel our galaxy more efficiently.  We use our tools to stress ourselves out for 10 hours a day at a job we absolutely hate, instead of releasing that energy to survive in the wilderness we once called home.  People, we have to get back to the basics.  Carry on our ancestor's tradition of evolution.  Continuously getting better physically, mentally and spiritually.  Connect with your neighbors, not with your favorite T.V. show's actor.  Teach your child what you have learned.  Don't ignore your seed just because your job drains all your energy from you.
These are things we should heed,
because without your corrupted officials taking the lead,
you will soon want all the help you will surely need

Greatness?

The honorable Carl Sagan once said, "We humans are capable of greatness." How true was he? When you look at the horrible newscasts going on everyday, and the numerous negative orientated media outlets, our future may not seem to so bright in your eyes. But our achievements, whether they be negative or positive, have shown me that humans can do anything we set our minds to. If we want to have huge ratings and only make money, we can make a show that has no human value, but the producers goal was achieved. If a family in America wants to know everything about Tom Cruise, they can do that, and they will most likely achieve their goal. We have an infinite knowledge database that is compiled of everything we currently know. And the most wonderful thing about it is, almost every person has access to it, whether it be their own home, a school, or a library. I believe our species is in an infant stage, and this time in our existence is extremely necessary. Historians will look back and point out all of our blunders, and will teach the children of their generations how to evolve their minds and not make those same mistakes. These thoughts give me an enormous amount of hope, in these dire times.

My Time on a Better Island

I wanted to travel to the Big Island after hearing how cheap the land out there was. That has been a recent dream of mine and the idea still sounds wonderful. I did very little reading, and may have been unprepared, but o well, even the well equipped sometimes lose their battles. I left work on a Tuesday, excited to escape my contract, my negative minded co-workers, my "supervisors", and the endless sounds of the city. Getting to the Big Island, I felt as though I just reached Oahu for the first time again. You can feel the island's presence, even if you are not connected soul to earth. I punched Cinderland's address into the GPS and started the Dodge Charger. As I got close to "4 corners", I saw what looked to be possible inhabitants of the tribe, selling "Eco Nuts". After my GPS failed to find the true destination of the hidden Cinderland, I drove back to the strangers to ask them for directions. I was met with both friendliness and my first surprise. Armpit hair! This truly was something I have never seen on a woman, but after learning how normal it really was, it became nothing more than hair. This reinforced my idea that something in one man’s world that could be accepted also could be accepted as taboo in another’s. After receiving guidance from my new neighbor, I arrived into the kitchen of the camp. Greeted by a few tenants, I was immediately welcomed with open arms. After eating some bananas from the land, I went to a Potluck at another village. Most of the food was vegetarian, with the exception of a little egg, and the meal easily satisfied my omnivorous appetite. I met a few intellectuals at the dinner and had amazing conversations about The Ringing Cedars Series, DNA plants, owning land, and of course life. After leaving Kurtistown with a full belly and mind, we headed to the camp for the night. My first day was more than a success, and it only got better. A few days later, I sat down with a realtor and then toured Hawaiian Acres. I was overcome with fear and doubts that I would fail at making it out here, and realizing my dream, but while reading ‘The Alchemist’, I learned that those emotions were as natural to the world as love. Knowing this, I pushed on. No big deal. After going to some of the properties with my realtor, I found an amazing lot, with many trees, which equals a lot of good soil, and that’s all I really needed to make my pick. My week long trip instantly became a success. During my time on the Big Island, I was shown not just properties. Residents of Cinderland took me to a few great tide pools and hot ponds. The ponds are amazing, having lava flowing right underneath them. I also went to the Volcano National Park, hiking through old lava tubes and valleys of barren rock. It reminded us of being on the moon.

Throughout my week I visited properties, various cities, and met wonderful people. I once thought that this world was too wretched to raise a child, but after seeing the communities children run around, I immediately changed my mind. These kids were different than regular American kids. They could hold a conversation with an adult, speak openly in large crowds, and introduce themselves in their own way. One of even randomly climbed on my back while I was doing some pull ups in the kitchen. Cinderland gave me a lot of hope for all of humanity. It showed me an alternate way of life, a life that was practiced by our ancestors. No, it was not a Utopia, but is there even such a thing in this life?

Anybody looking for something different than your regular nine to five job, five days a week, until you reach 65, should definitely visit an eco-village. Even if you go back to your life, you will gain a different perspective on life, and realize how your ancestor’s might have felt when they didn’t have to deal with stresses of this thing we now call “life”.

Here are some links to get you started.

http://cinderland.org/

http://directory.ic.org/records/ecovillages.php

http://hawaiianacres.org/

contracted out

If you came here tonight, trying to escape your current life

i'm right there with you, and i've recently realized my true might

i was once only 17, not having a single clue about what i wanted to do

so i hopped on a plane, about to start anew

i graduated BASIC, now i was a sailor, nobody now could label me as a failure

as i went to far away lands, i realized what our military actually did, gained america very few fans

i became lonely & depressed, my fellow workers didnt get it

the world wide web became my best friend, and i became a misfit

the net showed me the true power of knowledge and i kept wanting more

for now i can soar, to distant galaxies as well as deep into the earth's core

ive done two overseas tours, and i dont want this life anymore

but where will i work, there arent any jobs

that may be true, but honestly, i'd rather be poor

for i can not keep supporting war, this thing called the military industrial complex

battle after battle, country after country,

i wouldnt be able to live with myself

it's not that complex

sorry folks, i'm getting out, contract terminated

my soul will not be soled, my mind now recreated

rays of the sun permeated onto my skin

i do this for my future kin

there wont be a word for this thing we call sin

women, kids, and men, stand up and fight

not with your fists

but with your thoughts, your actions, your minds

let's Unite!

3

My life compares to that of this world

I was once a single Pangea, on one path in life

But when I couldn't run and move, my sight was blurred and times were trife

I slowly started to break away, hindered by my environment

my tectonics were chronic, ill, they barely could creep.

I was Mr. Button, growing more agile with age, now I could leap

I remember many firsts, one being a mage.

It was merely a game, but he gave me the power

to tower above the rest, even it was, just a blue cave

Inside there I found science, how everything is connected,

knowing our Sun and I are the same

it wants me to name him Horis

He will come forth and gain great fame

the dirt has crumbled, a new beginning has come about

lava is always flowing, killing all in it's path

don't be sad, islands will sprout, after it's wrath

2

Why must we depend on leaders/

from politics to the church/

are we so insane, that we have so little worth/

to live, to learn and grow, on our own/

or must we subscribe to little boys getting boned/

what a pity, your whole life is spent in this one big city/

FOX news tells you to be terror-fied/

while Sarah Palin just made a new word; electrified/

now I see it, we really are slaves/

you got security teams, out there, just waiting to tase

But I get it, it's not really them/

this society has turned the children to chilling, killing men/

that's what's fun they say/

shit that will make papa proud someday

A New Poet

Civilizations fall and rise/

just as the Sun appears and hides/

US in it's turning tide/

we will all soon be in the hide/

of the beast/

it is one, that we can not escape from/

they know, we know/

but they insist to continue with the show/

they're not only in it for the dough/

Cuz they think they are the cho/

sin few, their purposes I don't know/

should I stress this any mo/

this I also do not know/

for what is my purpose if I stay low/

to party while babies are suffering/

while Bush and others are stuttering/

there must be a greater task for me/

to put an end to all this misery/

WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE?