As another day goes by, I see yet another video to confirm my outlook on this country. We are in need of a massive revolution. While I enjoy a large hotel room, with running hot water, hundreds of innocent civilians around the world are struggling for survival. And this comes at the hands of my military. I will forever be a part of this horrible historic dilemma. How do we live with ourselves if we know that suffering is brought to the world by our country? I am filled with sadness and madness, feeling guilty every sober moment of my days. Eating too much food, and doing too little to help this problem. I could tell my military to lock me away, but would that really help solve the problem? I sometimes feel that I should muster up the strength to wait just six more months. Only then will I be out of the military, partially free to do what I want. But what hurts my soul even more is that these evil events will still go on. I feel helpless. What can we do? Protest? Not work? Run away, or fight for what is right? I need answers, but I am afraid no solution will be put forth. Please help, if you are out there.